The Dark Side



Ok I have been using gear for ten years now. I have used every type and every dose; I have used almost all other drugs that surround the sport too.

If I could go back in time, I would never use gear; in fact I would swerve the sport all together!

This may sound strange as I love this sport almost as much as I love life???

Well it’s because everything in the sport has a snowballing effect.....What do I mean by this? Well many will agree with me here. A person starts off with weights in their bedroom; next they join a gym, next get a diet and use supps. .....

All perfectly ok here? For many yes, but for some, they have already become addicted, a slave to the mirror.

So what happens next? They cant get any further so they try a few dbol tabs, next shots, then more shots, then insulin,aminogluthamide, gh, ephedrine, thyroid, anti e's, nubaine, dnp................see what I mean? Before they know it, ten years down the line they are addicted to all areas of bb'ing, competing, spending ?100's a week on food and even more on drugs, some even addicted to bloody opiates.

I will get flamed for this and some will be surprised at my post but I for one have seen the ugly side and yet I am still obsessed with the sport and everything that goes with it. I work two, sometimes three jobs to pay for it and have lost every gf ive ever had due to it and yet it still consumes me......

So this part is now written for all the girlfriends out there in hopeless relationships with moody bb'ers LOL

Gear does severely effect some guys in their relationships, myself obviously am such a person. When I step back and look at my behaviour and attitude to past gf's I am ashamed, but it is ultimately me that has lost out!!!! Just be aware of the signs, aggression, mood swings, being ignored, taken for granted and treated disrespectfully by him....it can happen (but may not)

I went to visit an x gf not so long ago and she was very bitter towards me. She told me that she loved me so much but I did all of the above to her and more that I am ashamed to put into writing. Overly excessive bb'ing, coupled with abusing (not just using) steroids ruined the best thing that ever happened to me and not only I did it to her but her next bf did the same as he was a bb'er too!! All my mates are at the same level as me and 7 out of ten of them are in the same relationship situations that I have been in.

I hope I haven’t offended anyone here, but I will say again, do not all fall prey to the dark side.....and to some reading this, who secretly pretend to themselves and others that all is fine will know a bit of what I am saying also applys to them as well

I'm off to slash my wrists now LOL